Almost done. I leave oklahoma today to head to San Fran for 2 days then back home again. Coming to the end of my road trip for the last one and half month has lead me to reflect on the memories that now linger in my mind. Overall i had the best time! Such an experience! I can't believe it is over after travelling through 7 US states and then Mexico/Canada as well. Starting our trip with 6 people then dwindling down to 3 people after Coachella. I'll post some photos on my pbase when i get home.
Being with Geoff and Ben and then some guys here in Oklahoma it has definately opened my eyes to the mysterious world of men. One which infuriates and intigues me at the same time. Kinda that phrase, you can't live with them but you can't live without them. Now i'm not a girly-girl, i can handle most of the boys antics but others are just unexplainable to a woman. Guys are just on a whole other level to girls. Last night i was in a bit of a man hating mood. I was over the immaturity, over the lack of respect for women, the insensitvity and upset about a few other things too (all relating to men funnily enough). So decided to have some 'me' time which has been pretty rare on this trip and so I walked around bricktown for a while by myself. My walk took me to a blues bar where this crazy blues artists was playing any tune that came into his brain. He was awesome! So armed with my $12 (it's all i have to my name right now!) i decided to check it out and possibly to forgot about guys for a while. After a vodka pineapple, 3 extra large shots and a dance with a 70 year old biker dude i headed home very much drunk. It's one way to forgot for a while!
The boys here reckon i'm too nice. I've never really seen myself as 'too nice', if someone affects me then i let them know what's on my mind but i never totally let it all go. I'm a capricorn, i'm stubborn, controlled and a deep thinking, which isn't natural bad but it can get in the way of expressing what i feel sometimes. But i've been thinking about the being too nice, i need to speak up and i need to let people know what i think cos if i don't then people (guys imparticular) can just walk all over me. I need to stand up and say that i deserve respect and to be cared for. Or just respect myself more. Watch out boys! Wa-ya! Karate chop! lol
So the mystery of men may not be solved and possibly never will but at least i can learn something new about myself.
Lady Jesslyn